Well,
On the eve of my birthday, I find myself wishing that things were going to be different.  Though they are what I planned, sometimes, I wish things wouldn't go the way that I planned them.  It would be nice to be suprised every once in a while... but, yeah.

There are so many thoughts that I am trying to process right now, and I am trying so hard to overcome the thoughts that are primordial.  Oh, that isn't what I meant, but the word just doesn't exist.  I've had to try so hard as of late to stay focused on the end, but at the same time, I don't want to be so focused that I miss everything that I am passing by.  I don't just want to pass, but I want to recognise things - I want to take the time out from being focused to relax and to be human.  The most difficult thing for me to do is to deal with stress.  More often than not, I am the one thing that stresses me out.

Each day of our lives is aliquoted the same amount of time. It seems as though, in the efforts we go through to thy to make the most of those 24hours, we miss the most important thing - we forget to live.  We get so wrapped up in getting ahead of the other person, or in trying to impress those around us.  I wish we could realise that they don't care - and to those who it matters, it really isn't that important.  Just as easily as they can be impressed by our actions, we will be unimpressive to them - to those who do not judge us by our character, but rather our appearances. 

Reflecting on wasted days can make anyone feel like a failure.

Hey, hey.

I've decided to dedicate these five minutes to re-visiting something that I haven't had the time for in a long while.  When I said that I thought that I wouldn't be in over my head, I swear I was being delusional!  Mammalian is fun, but I'm not doing well in it, at all... I'm passing Organic, Marine Ecology, and my NT class!  It's funny how things are shaping up.

My classes are keeping me more than busy enough and I'm so tired... and ill.  Last week on monday, the NP put me on amoxicillin, and took me off of it today, because I've developed an allergy to it, hmmmm... so I've had an interresting couple of visits in to the Health Centre.

This weekend, I'm goin out to Dayton with Em, Hannah, Chika and Dan for Emily's birthday... I hope it proves to be as much fun as we'd like. 

Still haven't heard anything back from the World Impact offices about the Spring Break trip for Katrina relief, but I'm really still hoping to hear back.  Apparently, government aide is going to pull out soon... I'm not certain about that though.


"God opposed the proud, yet gives grace to the humble..."

Can't wait for Thanksgiving Holiday.  Maybe I'll have time to update again... until then


when the night has come, and the land is dark and the moon is the only light we'll see. No, I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid... just as long as you stand by me.

Looking forward to the day...

So,

The rest of my visit to England was uneventful. 
On my way through Heathrow, I got lost - I was in the right terminal, just in the wrong wing.  But I got to where I was supposed to be - by a miracle of God, I was let through to the front of the line at JFK's immigration... thank heavens for wonderful New York people.... just one more reason why I love the city!

Anyhow, U.S.V.I. was a blast.  I feel like I was able to learn so much - and I saw so many things that I know I missed.  I almost had a run in with a six-foot barracuda...

I managed to miss every one of my connecting flights home, had the opportunity to spend upwards of five hours in terminal six, and never managed to get in to Rochester until 11:45... which means that I never got home until around 3am... yeah, I was a little bit tired-out.

I got to my home church yesterday and see almost everyone.  It was so nice (and exciting)...

I've been sorting through stuff and collection things for IWU these past couple of days, so I'm really ripped, roarin' and ready to go back to Indiana. 

I have to go to the mall tomorrow to pick up my permit certificate (long story), I meet my best friend Alysia for lunch/supper on Wednesday, my friend Jeff on Thursday morn for something... we haven't figured it out yet, and then I have a movie appointment with my guy-friends on (Thursday?) after I take my second road test and before I leave on Friday.... I still have to jaunt across town and spend some time with my second mom before I go back to university... I missed her so much this past year.
The most exciting thing of the day.... I had the opportunity to talk to Kayla Hillyard... my little Kayla Baby... ugh! I miss her so much. 

Enough spiel.
sarah

Random Lyric/Verse of the Entry:

- Come on little darling, now don't you cry, it makes you look older...

- Esther 4:14